This is in no way a decent reply. I just wanted to let you know that I was really touched by what you wrote (actually I cried), and I need a bit to figure out what is going on here- there is something working in me, and right now I'm a bit confused (well- quite a bit), so please let me get back to you when I know what my subconscious means to tell me.

I am very, very thankful; you helped me a lot here, though you don't even know me. That much I can tell you already. :-) So just... THANK YOU.