A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

[lemanya]

My modem died. Until the new one (finally) arrives, I am without internet. Currently, I am getting this message to you via the university computers. You have no idea how lost I am without it, and how much LJ stuff I'll be catching up on once I get it back.

Sigh.

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[mimblexwimble.livejournal.com]

I was thinking about you today. 'Cause you're so awesome. ♥

[lemanya.livejournal.com]

I literally just got my internet re-hooked up, and this is what I log in to.
♥ ♥ ♥

So how's college? And America? You've settled in okay? (These are the things about you that I've been thinking recently!)

[mimblexwimble.livejournal.com]

College is okay. I like the classes - mostly. Well, okay, three classes are freshman classes that I have to take and they're boring, but my British Lit class is a lot of fun. So yeah, classes = okay. People on the other hand? It's kind of sad how secretly narrow-minded everyone is in a school billed as "most diverse". But I guess if diversity meant open-mindedness, the world wouldn't be in the state it is. Why can't my RL world be filled with people like you? Who are awesome and sweet and smart? Whyyyyyyyyyyy?

(Deleted the other because . . . oversharing. Yeah.)

[lemanya.livejournal.com]

1. Maybe oversharing, but I still read it, and almost posted on it. Anyway, this is in response to that:
2. Honey, first off *HUGS*- I got a bucket and mop at the ready. Make all the mess you want.

Things like secret narrow-mindedness really make me dislike other people. And the problem is that it only takes one person with stupid ideals to change a system. That really sucks for you, so I hope everything eases out in that regard.

Why can't my RL world be filled with people like you? Who are awesome and sweet and smart? I was just thinking this the other day, listening to this group of people being obnoxious and talking in what was distinctly uneducated english ("geit broddy brah. yous got good marks"... wtf?) and wishing that you were with me so that I had someone on the same level to talk to. I picked the university that accomodates university rejects.

Maybe I need to be alone, or with people who aren't family
This I think, will help, if you get the chance. I don't know if it'd be worth changing schools, but getting away from the problem and the family really helps. I still haven't moved out of home myself, and I get the same kinds of statments- you should go out more, you have to make it happen etc etc. But I'm not that girl. I don't like nights out on the town, and I don't make friends easily, and my uni doesn't have the greatest extra-curricular programs. I live too isolated to really do much extra curricular anyway, and nobody lives anywhere close to me. And the strange thing is, that living with my family escalates that isolation. When I'm home by myself, I don't feel alone, but when my family's around, it's just depressing. So if you're like me at all, then being by yourself a bit more will probably help that.

And yay for writing! I'm really glad to hear that- it says so much about how you're feeling. ♥

[mimblexwimble.livejournal.com]

I picked the university that accomodates university rejects.
This is basically what I did. O_O

There are smart, interesting people here, but they're few and far between, and it often feels like they'd rather not talk about anything worth talking about and gossip about people they don't like instead because their friends do the same. Each to her own, I suppose. I can't understand it, but then I'm the one with no friends, so... :D

When I'm home by myself, I don't feel alone, but when my family's around.

This exactly! It's so refreshing being absolutely on my own, these days. It's like waking up. But there's no way I could escape without hurting someone, most likely my sister, who is one of the few reasons I've stayed sane the past few years. I don't like realizing that the kind of statements that friends that couldn't understand what I was feeling, are the kinds that my sister is making too. I know she doesn't mean it, but still.

Yesssss! Writing! \o/